Two things: I love you all and I am confused but they are not related topics

So today in church my pastor said that we all have people with whom we are brothers and sisters, whether we are biologically related or not. This got me thinking of Kaleo and the life we shared for eight months. It got me thinking about how much you all meant to me. How great it was to go down to the office and hear the latest hilariously controversial thing that Nate just said or to walk in on Abby punching someone out of pure joy or to be sitting and reading or just chilling my computer and have Katie come over and ask me the deepest and most personal questions she could think of. I miss walking into my room and hearing what new genre of music Bo had discovered and was now obsessed with or walking out into the hallway to see the new way Bob had modified his appearance. I really miss walking into the office and hearing great conversations about the stuff we were learning, or hear JL and Claire and James practicing Greek. I miss hearing borderline but not quite cursing from Matthew as he played dutch blitz or even seeing Johnny wandering around in his boxers outside his room strutting his stuff for the whole hallway. I miss Jeremy's random side flips and his great one liners that always seem to last for months after. I miss walking into the library to see Nick studiously pouring over his recent essay and yet he would always to turn to smile and ask what you were up to. He would also always stop working if you needed help, as if he was already done his essay when he wasn't. I miss sitting in the office and having Kristie randomly ask me some question that I had never thought of and then watch it devolve into relentless sarcasm. I miss Jimbad always sitting in the corner giving advice and wisdom to those of us who were struggling with questions of life and love and why for our essays. I miss worship sessions with Emma who always sang at the feet of her King or Kaitlyn who always prayed in reverence and with bold confidence for every occasion. I miss Mark coming home from Church and telling me how thankful he was for the graciousness of God that day in providing the most simple and pure pleasures like a good meal or a solid conversation. I miss Haley and Nicole arguing about who beats the other more and trying to justify their early morning laughing that disrupts their brother room directly below. I miss Ben's taste for terrible jokes and always wanting to do something fun. I miss how Rivs would never give a serious answer to a question the first time, she always threw out some sarcastic response then would answer seriously as if she hadn't just made a joke. I miss having Marrissa crocheting (spelling???) constantly as she talked with people in the lounge. I miss Trent always whipping past the lounge window on his bike, just playing around having fun. I miss Jenna's laugh (enough said) and I miss how she would completely destroy people in soccer. I miss how Ellie and Jess were always dancing when ever a hip hop beat was being played. I miss Bria's smile (again, enough said). I miss finding out that Jaderade and I loved even more of the same songs and I miss laughing at the hilarious thing that Caroline just said by accident. I miss eating MacDonalds with Matt at every opportunity regardless of location or time of day. I miss Josh period.

I miss hearing all your hearts and having sweet adventures and struggling through pain and suffering together and praying together and learning together. And while some of this stuff still happens thanks to God graciously keeping in contact with one another, it isn't the same now that we are all over the continent. I am not bitter that we had to leave, I am thankful that we had the time we did and that God made a family out of us. Praise Him from whom all blessing flow. To me that means praise God for all of you flowed into my life from Him and out of his grace and his mercy and his steadfast love.

Now the confused part. To be blunt, I feel out of place here on PEI. Lately I have been feeling very much so that I do not want to be here for a whole year. The summer seems long enough as it is. I have some thoughts on where to go but nothing solid. Even still I don't know if I am supposed to stick out the year or leave sooner. I feel like God is keeping me from taking steps to a more permanent life here on PEI. I am trying to discern my place in the fall, where I should be heading. Just any prayers/encouragements/thoughts at all would be greatly welcome.

I love you all very much family, I love you because you loved me and you are all wonderfully made and because I see our Father living in each of you. Grace and peace be with you all. Cheers.